New Year January 2014

Depression has taken hold in a big way. I got a job at another real estate and had a severe panic attack after one day. Off to the doctors, couldn't stop the tears. I am so low I can't focus. I am now on Valprease and Diazepam to try to level out. It doesn't seem to be working. I've had two anxiety attacks and am so down I can't seem to do anything. I just want to run away and hide where I can just be in peace and not have any stress. I am getting medical and psych help, but I don't really care about anything now. Just don't want to be here, this year was too hard. The dogs are therapy but it isn't enough. Thankfully I have a great supportive family and a loving husband. It's been a few years since I have wanted out altogether, but I can't cope at the moment.